As of today, I have officially been back at work for 1.5 weeks. Last week was a nice warm-up because my office closed early on Wednesday and we were off on Thursday for the 4th, so we were able to ease into the new routine somewhat.
I realize this is just the beginning, but this working mom thing is exhausting. Part of that is because I’m getting less sleep, and part of that is because having to be “on” all day at work and then coming home and taking care of two infants (along with the help of my trusty sidekick, of course) is just tiring. Regardless, we are all adjusting and thankfully finding a new normal is happening more quickly than I anticipated.
Daycare is going well so far. I cried when we dropped them off on their first day but surprisingly haven’t cried since! I still miss them and am anxious to see them at the end of the day, but knowing they are being well taken care of and making new “friends” helps. They are apparently napping and eating without any major issues which is about all you can ask for at this age.
A few other fun facts/observations from the transition:
- Pumping/storing milk/preparing 6 bottles/cleaning 6 bottles + pumping parts every day = almost like having another full-time job
- My feet are sore from wearing heels again. My arms are sore from carrying car seats, their daycare bag, my pump, my work bag, and my purse every day. My jaw is sore from clenching it all night worrying that the babies will wake up before it’s time for us to wake them up.* So right now I feel like an elderly person. A highly stressed elderly person.
- I wore pants that buttoned for the first time in 9+ months last week. Fortunately they did fit, but weren't nearly as comfortable as my maternity leave attire!
- I do not know how single parents do it, nor do I know how women with unhelpful husbands do it! I would surely have thrown in the towel already if I didn’t have as much help from Brian as I do… and cookies. He makes sure there is a steady supply of those available for consumption at all times and for that I am eternally grateful.
*We have gotten lucky a few nights and the babies have slept straight from 8:15 pm until we woke them up at 6:15 am. We have also gotten unlucky a few nights and they have woken up around 4 am, leaving just enough time for me to not go back to sleep until my 5:15 alarm. Special.
All in all, the transition has been easier than I expected. But like I said, I still miss the babies. A lot. And only getting to see them awake for 2 or so hours a day is hard. I will say, however, that at the end of a long work day, there is nothing better than seeing their faces when we pick them up at day care! I would have said "smiling faces," but they are typically in a daze at that point in the day, so they aren't so much smiling as they are looking tired and confused... but still cute, of course :)
Thanks to all of you for your support and encouragement, and thanks in advance for understanding if my blogging is sporadic for a while!