Happy Monday, all! I am relieved/thrilled/thankful to share that our last ultrasound showed growth and a stronger heartbeat, AND my HCG levels went back up- praise the Lord!
To say that I had been nervous leading up to Friday's appointment would be a major understatement. I normally don't consider myself to be particularly dramatic, but I suppose the last 3 years have just trained me to always be ready for the other shoe to drop, which is why I was wide awake at 3 am that morning figuring out what I would need to tell my hair salon if I had to call and cancel my hair cut for that afternoon due to receiving bad news.
A lot of "recovering" infertility bloggers talk about this topic, but the transition from battling infertility into pregnancy is a difficult (and awkward) one. We have faced so much disappointment and seen things not work out so many times in the past that it is hard to convince ourselves to expect (or accept!) otherwise.
I won't go on and on about it, but suffice it to say that I'm trying to reach a balance between being excited and being realistic about the fact that it's still early in the game. As has been the case for the last few years, the best term I can think of to describe how I'm feeling is "cautiously optimistic." So if I seem uncomfortable or emphasize that "it's still so early!" when you congratulate me, just bear with me :) The good news is that I have 33 more weeks to practice responding more naturally- ha!
Anyway, moving along, all is well so far. In the last few days, I have developed a general aversion to eating. I literally cannot think of anything that actually sounds appealing, and yet I only feel better once I actually do eat something. I am also sad to report that I have zero interest in Dairy Queen blizzards at the moment. But again, there are still 33 weeks left to correct that, so have no fear!
That's really all for now... I feel like we are just living from one appointment to the next for the time being. Hopefully my brain will get out of the fog it seems to be in once we are released to my normal OBGYN in 4 weeks, but in the meantime, hopefully these disjointed updates will suffice!
Thanks for continuing to pray for our (growing!) family, and please remember to continue praying for my sissy's family as they continue to recover from their loss.