I hope you realized in the last post when I said "disjointed updates," that I meant "very infrequent updates." I'm sorry! I really thought I was going to be a better pregnancy blogger than this, but I also really thought that I wouldn't spend every waking (and sleeping) second obsessing about whether or not everything is still going well.
I know what you're thinking: "GET A GRIP!" And I am telling myself the same thing about 800 times a day, but apparently it hasn't registered yet.
I had an appointment last Tuesday at 7 weeks exactly, and everything is still looking good! However, if you'll recall, 7 weeks means that I graduate to just one appointment per week. This is GOOD news, but the 9 days between my last appointment and my next appointment (this Thursday) might as well be 9 million years.
And yes, I realize that normal fertile people often haven't had a single appointment by this point, but when you are used to being monitored multiple times per week, you come to rely on those appointments for reassurance. So I suppose this is lesson #1 in parenthood about walking in faith and trusting that God has everything under control. You would think 3 years of infertility (or 29.5 years of life) would have taught me that, but you'd be wrong :)
Brian, on the other hand, is on the opposite end of the spectrum, which is not unusual in our marriage! I'm fairly certain that the thought that something could still go wrong flew out the window the moment he saw and heard that perfect little heartbeat. And although sometimes his eternal optimism really frustrates me, I am admittedly reassured by his confidence, so I'm thankful for that.
In the meantime, my biggest struggle is equating how well the pregnancy is progressing with how I am feeling. If I feel crappy and uncomfortable, then I assume that everything is perfect. If I feel generally fine, then I assume things have taken a turn for the worst.
So on that note, two things:
1. Will you PLEASE pray for me to have some peace of mind? PLEASE??
2. Will those of you that have already conquered pregnancy please reassure me that it is normal for my symptoms to come and go?
I think that's it for now. I promise to give an update after the next ultrasound, and if you are REALLY lucky, I might even post a picture of our little blob, so stay tuned!