As a result, I always get a little excited when a package shows up unexpectedly in our mailbox or on our doorstep, so when I came home from work on Friday, you can imagine my (very brief) excitement when I saw this box sitting on the welcome mat:
I spy a cute white pup in the background...
I say "very brief" because I immediately remembered that we were actually expecting a package on Friday, and it was not of the treat variety. But rather, it was a box full of medicine, syringes, sharps containers, and a plethora of other supplies lovingly shipped to us from Conception Pharmacy. Cue a deep sigh followed by this sound.
Yes, that's right, we are embarking on another round of treatment. Another round of medication, praying, doctor's visits, hoping, ultrasounds, jaw clenching, bloodwork, and all of the other fun that comes along with it.
This cycle will be unlike any of the others, however, because we have finally decided to give IVF a try. It honestly feels weird even typing that out, because I am still struggling to wrap my brain around it. All along, we have talked about IVF in terms of it being our absolute last resort. As in, we will exhaust all other options before going that route.
Well, after 9 rounds of Clomid/Femara, 2 rounds of IUI with injections, 10 months of acupuncture, and 0 babies, we are considering our other options to have been exhausted. I should mention that we weren't at any point opposed to IVF, but due to the cost and general invasiveness, it was understandably not something we wanted to do until we felt like it was really necessary.
As is the case whenever you dive into something you have always considered to be a "last resort," we are overwhelmed, nervous, and a little bit scared. However, a good friend recently wrote this post about her family's plan to pursue adoption and it completely transformed my perspective. Thank you, Kaimey, for helping me to remember that just because this seems like Plan ZZZ to us, doesn't mean the same is true for God! (Side note: She and her husband conceived their sweet little twins, Harper & Hudson, with the help of IVF!)
Anyway, I haven't decided yet how often I will post/update you all about this cycle, so bear with me. I am working on a list of specific prayer requests so I will plan on sharing those periodically at the very least. For now, please pray that the next couple of weeks while I'm on birth control pills (in order to level out my hormones) would provide a refreshing (albeit brief) break for us AND for my body!